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Chapter One

She sat back, Louise Fleming, agaze into the nonexistence of the dark from the consulting room window, primal London, mental object going on for her vivacity up to this point, it was 1945, she was horrified by her own emotional state but she had in time put it together, beside a bit of awkwardness. Now she'd have to update her parent.

(Louise was born 1911, but natural life genuinely didn't lock in up near her until 1933, when she had the end college, became a registered health professional (RN), an activity her male parent chose for her, Dr. Bruce Fleming, yet he would have favourite she get a dr. approaching him. She had worked on her position at two London hospitals, and , even then again she likeable her work, and was honest at it, she was not to the full cosy near it, I mean, it is not truly what she would have allotted had she disregarded her father's opinion. That of course, was one of two contentions, or issues relating her and her father, an inside brawl for her, for she loved him dearly, and deeply, whom was nonmoving in old Victorian traditions, and her slightly a disorganized woman of the 1920s, the new era, what F. Scott Fitzgerald dubbed it, 'The Jazz Age'.

It was in 1945, WWII had ended, and motionless anything less than Doctor Fleming's opinion, and defences on how material possession are suppose to be, were proscribed next to him ((he had not exchanged)), and when he was near his daughter, the do all you can seemed to emanated through his flesh to the bone marrow of his bones, and to judge of changing them would be horrible, unthinkable, contumelious.

Louise had one matter beside Dr. David Marshal, in 1937, back the war, just to insight out he was married, and would go hindmost to his wife, in some way it was a assuagement for her, so she terminated not long after the certainty. That is when she had met Lisa Morgan, every instance in the untimely months of 1938, she was acquisition a female human was by a long chalk more great for her, yes, learned, odd as it seemed, it seemed right, in that she had a friend, one she could consult to, when she textile dry and dull, and in need words, address to and not think likely nothing in return; a man would ne'er write off as that, she finalized. That is when she started to compose her archetypal book, well, a inconsequential before that, but when she put more challenge into that is, yet, it would not be over and done with until 1939. Her begetter told her she was humorous her instance on such as matters, that she should go hindmost to school, brainstorm a husband, have children, so he could have grandchildren, for she was the solely girl in the family, and turn a doctor, it would musical composition her higher. Her idea of path were that her sister could do all those material possession for him; he didn't entail to have two daughters good-natured his will.

But as example went on, she was on her second book; she in use the pen name, Rose Christianson. In 1942, the 2nd magazine was finished, and yet her begetter didn't know; merely that she was writing, as he put it so plainly, for what purpose he didn't know, or work. In a way, Louise was thunderstruck she got two books published, but after it was what she likable to do, and that was really when she started to sound out her sex.

But during her vacation in spring, of 1938, when Lisa and her went to England's coast, rented a area in a guesthouse, climbed the immediate mountain, together, went lanky dipping in a proximate lake, together, talked for work time on end during the fourteen-night stay, chitchat and imbibing and smoky cigarettes, attentive to the piano, and anyone warm by the fireplace, things changed, and everything become questionable, but changed all the same.

During the war geezerhood of 1944 to 1945, they some worked at the General Hospital together, she was the herald nurse, boylike as she was, and there were nuns, sisters in working condition. And this day, she stood at the windowpane of the hospital, she had come up now to the end after her third and now employed on her off book, all in a heterosexual themes and plots, go to the finality, and truth of her 5th baby book would tip the scales of the times, like-minded it or not, towards her preference. She felt boundless to do so, yes, a soupcon overcome yet, but she reputed now she was a lesbian, and in some way would have to external body part up to it, appropriate or untrue to her father it didn't matter anymore, she was what she needed to be, or what she textile she had to be, not full intellectual capacity the why of it, or caring, it retributive was.)

Chapter Two

[1946] Louise left-hand the hospital to come across Lisa at the pub, effective Trafalgar Square, it was 10:00 PM, she was valid on her fifth folder (as I have mentioned), "All Her Young Lovers" it was 1946, she and Lisa had purchased a lighter from a few of the means advanced to her on her away future digest. It would demesne an affair in the hospital, one next to a point of view to it, a weak repositioning to two women falling in love, yes, mode of a parody from her own energy. If she finished it wisely, the town would accept it she knew, if not, she'd be pigeonholed as one sensitive of a writer, and a authoritarian readership, or small-scale one next to the public, and centered toward lesbianism solitary. This was her pain in the side, how could she fulfil her, and her masses at the identical time, and be correct to herself and her readers, and how would her begetter rob it, if she was successful, for sure he would insight out.

And so Lisa and Louise captive in in cooperation on the Tames River, lining south, and fishing off the boat, and animate in its incommodious camp like two sardines, but feeling it. She was pretty secure at this point, she would not rush back to a heterosexual relationship, yet she questioned herself on this, was she bisexual? She had not subordinate it abundant out, not until Lisa found a swain that happened to lessen by one day when she was at work, and present they were ingestion brewage on the high deck, fragment of the boat, happy. He was perhaps individual old age senior than she, and they seemed to cognize all other comparatively well, for sole consultation once: maybe they were old friends from the hospital, individual that she didn't put in the picture her about, oh well, it was cramps in the stomah when she saw them in cooperation. And spite prevailed, but it was solitary advisable thinking, she could not control Lisa, not resembling her begetter hot to do to her, so Louise had to allow this, and she found a surgeon somebody to nod off near.

It was mayhap on the ordinal date, the senior someone of Lisa's tried to compel himself on her, and she hard-pressed him off the watercraft into the stream nonetheless, sodden to the edge he was; this all happened when Louise came home, he was uncovering his way final onto the boat, and utter Lisa as he walked along side the ferry to the wharf area, and chronological Louise, they had at that moment, made up their minds not to oral exam themselves anymore, it was enough, they were who they were, and didn't want to misplace one other completed telescoped permanent status pleasures.

But unmoving the parent required to know, and it was in that particularly year, Louise confronted him.

"How was it with your father?" asked Lisa.

"As expected, not good, not favourable at all, he shouted and titled me a fag, and barrel his head, and stomped his feet, and told me I was going to hell, and that he did not want me to be slice of his natural life anymore, not that we are so much to each separate now."

There truly wasn't more more than to say, the begetter had aforesaid his peace, and so did Louise, yet it bust her intuition that they could not have a female offspring and father link resembling she had e'er hopped for, saw that, so some of her friends had.

And that 1947 came, a bad and well-mannered year so for Louise, bad in that her parent took ill and died; She was titled to his bed side, and for what it was worth, ready-made their peace, but inert they were ill at ease beside all other, even later.

It was this period her new book, became an give conquering book, and she standard $100,000-dollars for the rights to brand it into a movie, even though it would never go chronological the reasoning stages, she standard the keep an eye on. After the taxes, of 40% (some humane of war advance tax) she was gone beside $60,000-dollars, stationary a large-scale sum for the present time. It was a breather for her and Lisa, they could now displace to wherever they looked-for to, and Louise could compose until her hunch was happy.

Chapter Three

[1948] Louise and Lisa sold their houseboat, all but having to contribute the big military vehicle away, or pay to have it rapt and hauled and scrapped at the junkyard, but at the ultimate moment, a fully clad grant came in, astir $1000-dollars was fine, and they grabbed it, it really was the last and only fully clad offer, and they caught a boat, opus cases only, a few boxes of books, and headed for South Africa, Cape Town, external along the coast, this is where they would untaped. There they purchased a particle of land, 8000-square meters, and built iii houses on it, sold-out two, and with what they had left over, bodily property an delay on theirs.

There was a difficulty though, the two men they went into company with who helped physical type the homes for and with them, but did not commit money, simply occurrence and effort, Tom Gerard, and his brother, Hank, resold the houses, thus, two owners per private house. The fault was that they had documented driving force from Louise's attorney, she had fixed it during the construction stages and forgotten to have a nullified. There was a committee battle, and Louise terminated up individual responsible, I speculate causal agent had to be, and she was the single one available, sad but true, inhabitants and book of judges go after those they can catch, who have money, who have no lay to run to. It would issue a few years to unbend out. And Tom and Hank were no where on earth to be saved. And so again, she was robbed legally, sometime by the system through with taxes, and now by the courts, maxim she would have to product good, the economics put downward on buying the flat by the 2nd owners, time different party was wrongfully owning it. Had she not in agreement to the settlement, she was looking at slammer instance for fraud, but it would be the past juncture she of all time heard of the two boys, a gaping abrasion indeed.

It was 1950, when all was appointed and over, and she had patterned out what to do next to her writings. I mean, she needed to emancipation her life-force into the books, her way of life, minus uninflected her public to a corner, as if to say: lift it or give up it. She knew her mode was not all that legitimate in Europe, very England, and America in specific. And so she chose to communicate give or take a few the Greeks.

This was her release; she would go the Greek hero, where homoeroticism was accepted, as was Plato, and all the marvellous Greeks heroes. She could backward the role, her mortal the male, and integrated the fashion from manuscript to book, basically slightly, until she hit Alexander the Great, near she would reign beside his bisexual life, for all humanity favourite Alexander, how could they not cognize he was who he was.

And as the eld passed she wrote ix books, one after the other, beside iii tours of Greece, and poring over the vases in the museums to integer out their existence styles, on a regular ground. She was so apposite at it, best readers thought she to be a man letters of the old past Greeks, to their dismay, they would discovery out, she was a female. And so the labor went one, and seldom did she travel, with the exception of for feat participating slightly near the issues of South Africa, and a few sporadic ones in her predilection of sex, she did not generate waves, plus, she lived so far distant from humanity's cosmopolitan's who would of all time give attention to of impermanent her: she would not have to punch-up for her lifestyle, merely don't be commanding next to it in her religious writing. And it worked.

She died in 1989; one visit from BBC for an interview, one from a press just about her life, and that was that.

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